A real pain in the txim and handling zombies thread...

[Elyris]

e-mail ?

Anyway: Bad stuff, indeed. I hope it'll be solved soon.

[Kiyevanie]

E-mail and PayPal.
I noticed cause there was a money transfer on my PayPal account that I didn't authorize. Problem got solved now, but it's a scary thought that people could have read all those mails...

[Kiyevanie]

My neighbours. Not my house, but across the street. I dunno what they're doing, but it's no way compatible with usual bedtimes. The days are more or less quiet, but in the evenings they get active. VERY active! Driving around in their car or with their motorbike, always letting the engines howl, hanging around in groups, chatting, laughing, calling out and squealing... there's also a child involved, from the voice I'd say toddler or kindergardener. Eh - I don't have problems with children playing, but at 11:30 pm???

Thing is, my bedroom window opens up to that courtyard/parking lot and with the weather like that I have the choice to either suffocate with closed window or to get a hunch of fresh air and endure the noise. Ouch!

I'm soooooooooo tired

[Kiyevanie]

Internet today has serious problems - there seems to be a major issue with a knot in Frankfurt and most of the German websites I need are somehow connected to that. New Hometree is making me dizzy from speed compared to some local pages. Ugh.

[Elyris]

That's rather unfortunate .... to put it in diplomatic terms. I hope it get's sorted out soon.


Very very annoying:

Spoiler: show

My aunt somehow got herself a 'boyfriend' and of course I am expected to get a stroke from 'joy' . Ridiculous.

She may do what she likes in her life. I, however, does not have to like that too. It's what fairness demands (especially taken into consideration how I am always expected to keep my mouth shut about things I am interested in and no one else seems to be or my opinion to myself whenever it clashes with what others see fit.)

I can only hope that this issue will be soled soon or there will be blood.

[Kiyevanie]

It works again, yay! There were mostly customers of Telekom and Unitymedia concerned (as in: the vast majority of internet users in Germany) and of course that means some unfortunate people had to work their rears off to fix the problem.

The other issue: Ugh. I can see why it's annoying as heck. Too bad there ain't a "ignore" function in real life.

[Elyris]

Ah ja - eine Massenstörung then (always the worst possible reason, as you can't do anything yourself, you got no chance of getting a better connection a few blocks from your position - so to speak - and you won't see any compensation either ... yay)


That would be so nice. It's been annoying for 20 years now, but with the recent 'developments' it hit a level of unbearablity that I don#t know how to survie. Maybe I'll just skip christmas (there's nothing 'fun' in it since many years anyway).

[Elyris]

everything

Spoiler: show

Soooo - as I am heading towards becoming 40 and still have no life that deserves that name at all, I thought about moving out from my mom a few motnhs ago.
Apartments are sparse and those you can pay even moreso - especially with being on 'social benefits' you got quite clear borders for size and price, which in practically unobtainable here.

Indeed I found a place that's onky remotely over the size cap - 40,13 squaremetres, but was over the price-cap - the cap is at 298,99€ and the space is 350€ (without power and heat, but you can't actually go much deeper). So after a very straining odyssey it actually came to pass.

Now I had no furniture whatsoever, so my grandparents jumped in - which is very kind and caring of them, but brings the downside that they want to say how it should look in the end pretty much.

Last weekend my grandma told me that because they helped me out with the apartment the garden will go to my cousin (which I actually think was her plan to begin with as he is a man and we don't have one and of course we're so weak and clueless and undisciplined, so we won't be able to have a garden on our own, so that was that and I loose the only bit of land I could call home.

With that call center nonsense most likely not goign to work out I wll loose my right to obtain 'social benefits' for 3 mothes (most likely to happen, I can't see otherwise), with no reserves whatsoever.

And to top it all off my mom will most likely loose her apartment, due to me movinh out, as it is 42 squaremetres and 450€ (including heat).

As there are practically no tiny, cheap places in this town she will end up in the 5th level of some unrenovated shithole.

So: no money anywhere, no balconies anymore, no garden anymore and no hope that anything will ever become bearable.

And of course: all of this is our fault and our fault alone.

And people really wonder why I am depressed.

I am way too exhausted for anything. Even the thought of having to do anything is nearly making me throw up.

I have been 'fighting' for 30 years now and never got anywhere. I am done. Whatever strength I had, whatever endurance levels there were - it's all gone.

This is much above being annoyed or even hurt. It's being executed very slowly, invisibly and - most of all - completely legally and in resonance with what people who are not in that situation (yet) wish for.

[Kiyevanie]

The German election results...

[Elyris]

Well - they were unsurprising, so I feel no difference to before. (I've been thinking that I should prepare for sudden run-an-hide maneuvers for months.)

[Kiyevanie]

Yeah, it was kind of expected. But for once I hoped I'd get "disappointed".

[Elyris]

Last evening (around 6pm) we saw the Return and Revenge of PsychoCat .... I had to drive my mom to the emergency room to let her stiched up.

[Kiyevanie]

Ouch!

[Elyris]

You cna that again. The scras will be ... interesting.

[Kiyevanie]

Ugh. Where did Psycho-Cat get your mom?

[Elyris]

I stumbled over a cable (duh), lil bee got really frightned/irritated, started to bolt through the living room and then jumped at my moms face (who sat on the couch) - repeatedly - until i finally managed to shoo her away( althoug hshe tried to come back at her even after that). Multiple scratces in moms face and a cut over her upper lip that went trhoug to the gum ... which is why she had to be stiched (I told her after examining).

[flighter]

My cat is an alien. She doesn't obey orders in Serbian, she doesn't obey orders in English. What the hey?! She is a slow learner. She now avoids trying to get into the house through the window because few days ago she almost killed herself there and was in pain. Now she doesn't come close to it.

[Kiyevanie]

OUCH!!!! again to both of that.
To those scratches in the face as well as the cat in the window...

[Xacoon]

*sigh*

Looks like I have to quit school again.

So 2 years ago I had a big leg surgery and since then I've had a lot pain in my foot. 2 weeks ago I went to the hospital to see how big the damage was on my nerves. Turns out that the main nerve to my foot isn't responding at all and that I will live with the pain for the rest of my life. I can barely stand still for more than 15 min at the time before I have to sit down.
My doctor tried to hide the fact that he cut into the nerve under the surgery by not sending me to another department and thus making my pain worse than necessary.
This means that I can't stand at my workbench anymore and do basic work like planing a board.
And now I'm gonna get a handicap certificate on at least 75%.

FML

[flighter]

There is no possibility to fix it or improve it at least?!

That's crazy. They manage to re-attach severed limbs and make them somehow functional, but they find it difficult (and I don't doubt it, to make myself clear) to fix something that isn't fully broken.

[Xacoon]

Well, they can put in a tiny computer into my spine that can interfere the signals from my foot, but that's a risky surgery. I can take some meds but those will affect me in so many other ways.

Oh, and get this. The part of the brain that register pain will grow the more often you feel pain and thus you will feel more pain in the future. Yay!

Well, next meeting with my new doctor will be the 19th, so I will ask if there is a possibility to get a spray made out of a specific plant that can actually help me.

I do hope though that my last doctor gets fired from his job

[flighter]

Noooo. Bad doctors should just feel the taste of their failures. Back at home, in my hometown, there is a lady who is a director of ear-throat-nose surgery department. Hey, a DIRECTOR. She is even my mother's friend. But, in both managerial way and as a doctor, she is horrible. Husband to my kids' doctor works in the same department and so many times he had to urgently fix stuff she almost destroyed. One young lady was undergoing a minor surgery, which should last for under 15 minutes. The lady almost destroyed her tonsils, and if not for that other doctor, the young patient would never be able to speak again

I understand that some people are less capable, and that is fine, nobody is perfect. It is maybe just me, but if I have to deal with human life and health, and if I know that I am less than capable of doing it the RIGHT way, even if the management doesn't remove me, I would just go. When it comes to the healthcare, there is no such thing as "good enough" and "not good enough" can't be tolerated at all. And, yeah... "I don't care" attitude should be treated the same way some other criminal activities are.

[Xacoon]

Well, firing him might be a bit much, a lot of knowledge would be lost. But I would like him to apologise for his mistake in front of everyone at the hospital, or teach other students on how to emit mistakes when they happen and not to hide them.

[Xacoon]

*sigh*

Got a new thing to add to my list of poop.
So apparently I've got a severe case of fatigue syndrome.

I'm so tired

[flighter]

Xac, the lady (not a man) is making mistakes for decades without any consequences. it was a guy (husband to my kids' primary doctor who usually saves the day. And no, she won't apoligise, ever. if she has conscience, she would do that and then not resign from the position but quit the job because she is clearly incapable.